ain't a fairytale.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

life

so life's seriously complicated nowadays.

im so tired now.

today was.
i guess the best day of the week?
talked to rafi.
i love him manxzsxzs
i can talk anything i want to him!
hé's my bestest buddy!;D

hahahs.
seriously.

gosh, im no more stress.
thanks rafi!
:D ily!!!!
hahahah!
D:
ive venged out whateve ri thought
and felt to him;D
not FOR HIM
hahahah!
shit. this is not. nvm
D:

sorry people, i know im so irritating nowadays
im going crazy.
and i know im so emo nowadays
until.. yeah
im better now.
i guess?

i miss him so much!
i love him so much!
whyy must this happen?!

i guess this are the best people in my life.
afiqah, jannah, atiqah, natasha, aqilah.
rafi, rayyan.
alwani, sabrina, amira, vanessa, sharonna.

my best hangoouts.
alwani, amira, najwan, shaik, syahmi.
i guess?

my confiders.
afiqah, rafi.

my life.
myself.

i feel so much better after talking to rafi.

---

yesterday naafiu confessed to me.
wow.
(9:52 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: 8 mins to go..
(9:52 PM) Nadhirah; confus: hmm
(9:52 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: count down..
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: can i say smthn
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: ur spcl for me..(:
(9:53 PM) Nadhirah; confus: hm? why so sudden?
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: like i hav fallen for u
(9:53 PM) Nadhirah; confus: are you okay?
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: -blushes-
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: yaaaa
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: im tellin the truth
(9:53 PM) Ỉồνέ ωάϨѝΤ Ỉồνέ: okeiii

---

the days before,
shaik kinda confessed.
its so freaky.
i got him a way to kinda confess.
but still, he directly, didnt.

--

ibrahim.
you're a TOTAL SHOCK.
its like you were from the water cooler.
im to class.
we pass each other.
you stopped me.
"will you believe me if i said something?"
"huh?"
"will you believe what im going to say?"
"hm? what?"
"i love you"

he was like so tall.
im so short.
he looks down at me.
staring.
im looking ahead.
i dont dare.
then. it was just.
"uhm.. oh.. okayy"
i was so SHOCKED.
too many things happened!
like break ups, scoldings, confessions, new people!
argh!

anyway as i was saying.
then just.. walked off.
then he eyed on me during english.
and it was so.. awkward..
like he was seeing if im okay?
---

shaik was weird.
i mean, after school.
k. let me tell you.

alwani was uhm, crazy and keeps bragging about guys
soo, i dragged her to the guys
which was so hard.
until she fell. OOPS. ;x
okok, and then, i dragged her with my left arm
left arm!
(and now the pain's back like at the shoulder and neck too)
haha.
so yeah, finally brought her there(though still end up nothing)
then i was like.
"shaik! just talk la! i bring her all the way here and my left arm's pain you know!"
cause he wanted me to go away. and alwani wanted me to stay, if not she'll go
"can i see your hand?"-with serious and concern face and his hand calling out for mine-
it was so. WOW.
i was so astonished.
i was dont know.
i was about to cry that point, i miss ashraf.
he would grab my hand and just wipe the pain away. ):
so, back to the point.
then i smiled sheepishly said,
"uhm no.. heh.. uhm.. its okay la. (:"

haha. embarrassed much?
he seemed to act like boyf just now.
haizzz..

--

did see ashraf today.
but not face to face.
he wasnt loud.
wasnt noisy.
wasnt annoying.
wasnt.. idk?
he was.. different.
sab thought he didnt exist today.
haha!
but its alright, i always know he does.
in my heart.
gosh, im being so mushy! ><
--

so anyway,
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
anyway i didnt see his face this whoole day
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
he wasnt close with his bestf.
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
usually we will face to face
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
today never. :P
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
hahah
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
instead i face to face. and give face
Nadh irah ; wow. speechless says:
aahha

---
(8:03 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: and you know what?
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: today morning like i purposely terserempak(walk pass) with him

(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: cause i see him like tk nk(dont want) see my face
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: i purposely walk like past him
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: then he glanced at me like i sense guilt. :P
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: hahah.
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: sooo. best.
(8:04 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: then today i think he dare not see mah face

--
(8:05 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: happyu uhhs ?
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: best uh
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: now like i abit gain control
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: ahhahaha
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: i feel the power babeh
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: and i think i dont knw. if he saw that ibrahim confronting me
(8:05 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: cause after that , i saw him sitting at the railings
(8:06 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: then i was outside my class with that ibrahim mah
--
(8:06 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: aber aper jadi ?
(8:06 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: alifah dtg ?
(8:06 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s:
(8:06 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: aku tk tau
(8:06 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: then tht ashraf just continue sitting on the railings
(8:07 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: dier tk ckp nga ko ?
(8:07 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: tk uh . tk boleh pun. like parents larang? entah! anyway abeh bila(when) eng lesson kan, si(the) ibrahim peep on me. cause now i sit at the back, cause i prefer being close with ibrahim's class which is at the back then ashraf's class which is infront of my class and last time i sit at the front.
---
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: my class inbetween their class
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: and in my class is shaik
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: and im STUCK
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: tmr is so BAD.
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: BAD
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: BAD
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: BAD
(8:12 PM) Nadhirah; wow. s: BAD
--

im so mad.
thanks rafi, again!

--
anyway, now syuhada's not okay.
seriously, like mental breakdown.
gotta find a way to talk to him! (:
--

so nowadays i get somewhat bullied
by the prefect guy seniors.
esp lutfi.
hmph.
like ever since they know im not attached?
sucks.

so whatever eh.

then uhm.
by syahmi and najwan too!
hahah
they so funny!
they will do the violin action
meaning, like im slashing.
cause they know?
hahah.
so it was funny.
i'll make faces.
:D

okay. thats all?
i'll put up things again
when i remember?:D

6:56 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: eh mondae aku cerite kn kt rayyan pasal ashraf abe dier pun tk happie nagn ashraf
:D
me lovey themmy.

--
and i dont like the new rumour
about me.
for goodness sake,
i have no boyfriend from greenview!
anyhow only!
who started it?!

shit lar.
i dont even know any of them.
hmph. thanks anyway.
lol-.-