ain't a fairytale.

Monday, March 23, 2009

flashbacks):

this blog priorites on my life,
so, its not my problem you ended up here.

honestly,
people should REALLY be thankful.
& stop complaining,
im serious-.-

seriously,
they should really.
cause if they see others that just shut their mouth
about their life,
and when they find out about other's life.
they should really open up their eyes.
im serious.
& anyway, im not gonna talk about
my life.
my real life.
not that its virtual now. -.-
but whatever(:

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okay,
i feel so happy!
hahaha.
i feel freeeeeeeee.
i mean, cause he is?

i dont know why,
but somehow what im doing to me is, really
brings ALOT OF GREAT BENEFITS.
TO OTHERS.
more than to me.
i dont believe, i should make myself happy anymore.
im so happy that others are.
and im so glad, now i can see them smile.
and i can make them happy.
iloveeveryone.
my family, cousins & friends.

if i had been faster,
his life would be better.
im so glad, for the first time i fulfill my promise about guys!
at least one of it?
its not about me.
more like them.
so yeah, im so glad.
im hated by him.
& im glad he is not guilty.
IM SO HAPPY!:D

im nuts.
i really,
yesterday really.
i really felt i should go to Institute of Mental Health
shaik's seriously.
he needs to get murdered-.-
kidding!
anyway, yeah.
as i was saying,
i mean, im going INSANE.
seriously.
let me count how many cuts i have.. thats still visible
hmmmm..
TWENTY.
YEY.
omg.
TWENTY.
thats abit too much huh?

amalia saw my thing i used.
hahahahahahahah.
yes, im very daring, sister.

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so hows the new me?
the almost there new?
hah.
najwan's not noticing-.-
duhhhh.
anyway, whatever.
hahahs.

okokay crap.
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so hm.
where was i talking about?
i have no idea.
lemme seee.
i think im gonna do more cuts?
somehow i still feel stressful.
oh, i know why.
i just need a guy's love.
-sigh-

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sorry shouldnt have said that.
anyway, gosh, shaik made me ):
again. :@

he had to say,
cause i said,
uhm,
"i thought you saving your prepaid for emergencies"
he HAD TO SAY ONLY THIS IN ONE SMS. AND THAT HAD TO MAKE ME SAD.
"anything for you ;)"
THE WINK
___ FAVOURITE LINE OF HIS.
FAVOURITE ACTION OF HIS.
WHYYY?
I DONT WANNA GO THROUGH IT ALL AGAIN.
btw, i dont like or love shaik, okay?
people are nuts.
i mean, he's my friend la.
good friend.

k, skip that.
haizzz.
where am i leading to?
i just love to see the people i love happy!
(:

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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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i still think i dont belong in this world,
my left arm's can say, it hurts.
haha.
dont care:D
anyway, hm.
im gonna try.
му нєαят ωιѕнєѕ тσ∂αу тнαт ι ѕнσυℓ∂ нι∂є уσυ ιη му ємвяα¢є... ι ƒєαя тнαт ι мιgнт ℓσѕє υ...
naafiu's phrase
i took. cause he allowed me.
and i feel it in me )):